I think I shook myself up after the chemo post (and that wasn’t even the half of it – ug).
Since that post I haven’t felt completely fine. A bit of stress has been hitting from all angles and I have another 3 month scan coming up this Friday (August 5, 2022).
When I do look back, the past 90 days have been truly amazing. My Whippleversary trip, home improvement projects, and returning to work full-time (from home) have been really positive steps toward feeling “normal.”
I’m not constantly thinking about what my next meal will be, not overwhelmed with medication, and some days I forget what I’ve been through.
But as we get closer to scan day, the “scanxiety” picks up again. I don’t feel anxious or worried per say. I just feel like I don’t want the present taken away. We’ve planned some home projects and getaways and I don’t want that to come crashing down. Again.
Each day I’ve been excited about moving forward and we’ve accomplished some great things in the past few months and I don’t want to take any steps backward. I don’t want the momentum to be halted.
So we pray. And your prayers would be appreciated too as we get closer to the morning of August 5th.
With all my love,